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A break to update and complain

Well folks I'm now 16 nearly 17 weeks pregnant. I'm taking an anthro lab because I'm vying for the title of world's biggest masochist, and juggling a preschooler and a classic hot tempered two year old.

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Okay I'm tired. My nose is drippy and I need to handle that. So I depart. I'll try to have ultrasounds and other cute stuff next time. I hope.


Not for folks looking to watch their waistline. I'll modify it to cut the fat and calories but for now, the old school way.

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Update on Gabby

 To those of you who had been contacting me, I just wanted to let you know her family went to TJ and she was found. :) The police had been holding her (illegally) but they were able to negotiate her safe return. 

Help finding a missing girl

My friend Michelle's sister is missing. She went to TJ and told the family she was leaving yesterday and no one has seen or heard from her since. They are not sure she even made it out of Mexico.

Her name is Gidget Romero and she is 23 years old. I have uploaded a picture of her provided by Michelle.


If you have any information please contact me or visit Michelle's facebook: https://www.facebook.com/michelle.panellmontoya to drop her a message. If you could please share this information with your friends to boost the signal I would really appreciate it.


Billy Boyd getting married on or near my birthday made me squee.


I said it.

even if he does look old omg.

Still would hit that, let's not get confused.

Okay gotta run, late for a massage.

Meme time part 2!

7 deadly sins challenge gacked from piratesorka

Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.

This will probably be almost too easy.

(In no particular order)

1) People who have obtained their degree(s). I haven't finished college yet, largely due to how I prioritized my life and it would be very nice to just be a parent not a parent and struggling student. I feel like I'm behind the curve.

2) People who own their home, especially a house in a good neighborhood. We're working on home ownership but it's going to be a hard road for us, full of compromise and careful shopping thanks to our limited budget. I'm grateful to have received even a pre-approval, but I'd love a 3 or 4 bedroom house in the burbs with a nice sized back yard, dark hardwood floors, a big bathroom with a spa style tub, and a couple more bathrooms for my brood, oh and a kitchen with an island and granite or some similar stone counter tops. I have a dream house in mind, but I don't have the budget for it yet.

3) ANYONE who is thinner than I am and especially skinny but curvy bitches. I'm looking at you, ScarJo. I used to be able to stick to a strict regime of less calories and constant exercise and I STILL wasn't a skinny bitch. I've been fat my entire life and what I wouldn't give to wake up one morning and realize I've done it, I'm a thin woman who can walk in any store and find my size. Though I wouldn't have to confidence to show my stretch marks I'd love to fit and look good in a bikini. And while I've been fighting my compulsive eating, laziness, and intense real life stress, I seriously doubt I'll ever get down to a single digit size before I die.

4) Big girls with great bodies. If I'm going to be a fat chick my whole life I'd love to be a fat chick with an hourglass shape. I could rock say a size 16 sans rolls, spare tires, and thunder thighs. But I'm shaped like a pearapple and that's just the way it is. I have friends who are plus size with great shapes and I envy the shit out of them.

5) Parents with neurotypical children. This one hurts the most to write but I'm too old to fool around and tell lies to myself. It's not the child's "normal" status that I covet so much as it's the ability to take for granted that their child won't have extra struggles, or be the recipient of labels that inherently downgrade their abilities. I envy that parents with NT kids can just assume that with a decent upbringing and fair access to education their children will do as well as or better than they did. With my children there is so much uncertainty, and I still don't fully understand how my son's special needs to alter his education and ability to be self sufficient when he's older. And that may be times two.

6) People with a strong sense of self control. I strongly believe that if I mastered more discipline in my life some of my short and long term goals would be attained and sooner. I'm sure the root of my failure in diets and major lifestyle changes is a tangled web of depression, lack of support, and crappy self control.

7) People with a broad network of good friends, particularly former mutual friends who have drifted apart from me. Even if I parted with a friend on bad terms, I still miss the companionship and knowing what's going on in their life. Plus, I gotta admit I love being loved by everyone. In fact, as a teen I was pretty obsessed with pleasing everyone. As a young adult I think I vacillated between wanting to please everyone, and all but saying fuck everyone. Now, as a young woman coming up on 30 I realize I have a very small network of close real life friends, and only one is a mom. I've made new friends via birth month groups and a few play date type programs Nathan has been in but I haven't been able to connect with them. In truth I know I need a close mom friend, ideally someone who is on a similar boat as I am with my kids, and I need her to live close by. But I recognize that the people I know with a good network of friends go out a lot and socialize. I'm only just starting to come from a several year long haze of depression, and I'm still not confident enough to tangle with two toddlers solo so I can meet some people. I hope to soon though, for my mental health's sake.

Meme time!

7 deadly sins challenge gacked from piratesorka

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.

Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.

Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.

Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.

Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.

Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.

Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.

Day 1-Pride Man this will probably be the hardest to do

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So I've been brushing up against nostalgia and I'm in want of a good Monaboyd fix. There may or may not be writing stuff motivating this but that's for another post.

Thus I'm pleading to my flist to share with me their favorite Monaboyd pics/art hell even manips.

I'll even keep this post open so if you know of any kindly and bored tinkilts that want to help make this The One Monaboyd Picspam I'd be ever so grateful. *bats eyelashes*

Please? :)

To start, I'll post my all time favorite pic of them. (Under a cut to save the flist)

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Jacked from Baisleac

One little compliment can make you feel amazing.

So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind you of how great you are.

Don't forget to post this in your own LJ so I can compliment you, too!